Anyway, let me first start of by saying, I love my new son-in-law, Parker. He is a godly young man who loves Jesus first and our daughter second and we wouldn't have it any other way. It's just that we didn't expect all this to happen soooo soon!! We gave them godly counsel to wait along with logical and practical counsel but of course what do we know... hahaha!! We had two weeks to prepare for a wedding. Parker flew to Ohio on Monday, August 13, they were married on Thursday, August 16 and both flew back to Santa Cruz on Friday, August 17. What the heck just happened?? In those two weeks, I left my "mommy" body and became the most efficient and organized wedding coordinator ever. I planned a bachelorette party for her (even bought her lingerie for her honeymoon...what mother does that????) and organized the wedding ceremony. But before you think I'm super awesome, let me just say, I had a lot of help... from our closest friends, church family and my mother, who flew in from MD with my niece. But then on Saturday, August 18, I returned to my "mommy" body and realized my baby girl just got married and she's freakin' gone!! I suddenly felt this deep sense of loss. I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me... I couldn't sleep nor eat (which never happens even when I have a toothache or flu). And emotionally, I would be great one moment, able to handle not hearing from her then suddenly a burst of angry emotion would surface because I have not gotten a response to my text that I sent her about 30 minutes ago. Oh did I mention, all my psychotic emotional outburst about this happened during their first week of marriage and honeymoon. Yes, I am one of those mothers that can't seem to give up control of her children and it's manifesting during my daughter's honeymoon! How crazy am I??? I am beyond thankful that Parker has been understanding of all this.
So where am I now... I'm doing better. Spent more time worshipping Jesus, asking Him to take this loony behavior away. He healed my broken heart and gave me a sense of peace and joy reminding me that He loves me and that I need to re-focus on Him. He assured me that Kylie is His and that He is in control of her life, her marriage and her future. He assured me that Parker loves Him and because of that, he loves our daughter very much and will do his best to lead her and their family. Don't get me wrong, I still miss her and at times have that sense of loss but at least now, I can eat again!! lol!
Welcome to our crazy family, Parker!
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