Lights, camera....

As I mentioned previously, our oldest daughter recently married... but that's not all the changes happening in Team Raynes. We are in the middle of transition. Jason is the interim Lead Pastor for our church in Boardman OH until they find a permanent one. And we, as a family, are looking to move back to the DMV (DC, Maryland, Virginia) area, where both of our families currently live. We are waiting on God's provision (employment & place to live). In the mean time, we are doing our part of preparing for this move... applying for jobs and creating a plan for the vision that God has given us as to the purpose of this move.

And this past Friday, as we were shooting a video for the work that we are going to do while we are the DMV area, I found out that I'm not great at being in front of the camera with a script. hahaha... I think it was because there was a script that I had to follow rather than speaking as myself. I wasn't free to be me. I had to be "camera" Frances. We took sooo many "takes" and in between were a lot of laughter and "passionate" dialogue exchanges with Jason. LOL!!  I realized through this process that I like "me", the crazy, passionate and sometimes weird self. And I like the way I communicate even if it doesn't mean looking professional on camera. I like who God is molding me into and it's a woman, bold and confident in Him and I can only be that way when I am free to be me, uniquely designed and formed by the Creator of the Universe. 

Growing up, I've always performed and wanted to perform for an audience. In my elementary school days, I took dance lessons and put on dance performances for our families during parties. As I grew older in my teen years, I became more and more timid and didn't want to perform as much and I really didn't know why. I guess I feared not doing well, not fitting in with the crowd, or being criticized for my performances. I focused on what others may think of me rather than do what I enjoy doing. Oh how I wish, I didn't waste time worrying about what people thought or were going to think of me and just enjoyed myself when I wanted to. For example, I LOVED dancing but I waited until the end of my junior year in HS to tryout for the Pom Pom squad!!! I should have been on the squad all 4 years... sigh!!!

Anyway, going back to the point of this blog... changes... we are in the midst of change but in a holding pattern. No next step in sight... just waiting for the job, waiting for that door to open, waiting for God's provision. But until then, I will just have to be "me".